October 2023

Heat Climbs in

Smell of heat coming off the road It’s not a fire smell Just the heat from the sun Thongs sticky as the heat climbs into them Day lillies bloom Orchids open Merry golds flower Cuttings spread roots My skin red from

Loving Minu Tai

…and learning from her. A meditation on love, loss and healing Minu Tai and I were given two vastly different lives to live. I’m not adding a photograph of Minu Tai to this essay — so here’s a description — an agile

Token Brown

tell me about your whiteness I don't want to hear travels in Asia the study of reiki how you laboured with a doula the souvenirs of plunder mine it for me the caucasian in your veins apply this like a poultice onto

For Manipur

When truth wears the emperor’s new clothes, and nakedness becomes a parade, If civilization began with dressing, we are in retrograde. She is auctioned everyday to corporates, parts of her renamed, only given a parrot voice, You allow anybody to touch

Reversed

You thought I would cry? My smile has the oppressed reprisal of generations that can burn ash I take tiny steps to the end of the world that you have ruled with your death traps Nothing escapes the gravity of

The Prince of El Pardo

  He rode into Madrid on a white horse, flanked by a military guard that ran the length of Calle de Toledo. Every Spaniard, whichever side they were on, had heard the promise spread by those dour women in their dull dresses

Ahalya’s Waiting

“Ahalya,you will live here for many thousands of years, eating wind, without any food, lying on ashes and generating inner heat. Invisible to all creatures, you will live in this hermitage. And when Ram, who is unassailable, comes to this terrible

Neurotic

‘It’s way past midnight’. “Who remains awake at this ‘happy hour’, signing a pact with the mind’s secret chambers?” “Neither a ghost, nor a she-demon, nor a witch, but a dark, sombre truth of a female body in her prime, screaming

Blessings

Sighing softly I collapse on my favourite chair after a crazy long day. In and out, slowly, deeply let the muscles relax I tell myself. It is blessedly quiet the night silence fills the air. A hot cup of tea, a book

Scholastic Brothel

It was that golden hour one wild evening in the chaste spring When the sun melted in a pool of warm pink and down it sent a wanton gleam To brush against her soft cheeks and give her curls a fiery tinge

Moonflowers

night is alive with stars watching moonflowers’ unfurling petals I sit among their shadows my feet trammels dust waiting for your return long ago moonbeams touched my face or was it you whispering, setting my blood roaring my head spinning.

Preserved in Amber

Fossilised resin crystals from forgotten forests encircle collar bones toffee-like & organic amber conjures a timeless world before flowers insects immortalised inside sweet sunlit orbs beyond history Now so-called amber notes lay the basis for modern perfumes product of our imagination

Meeting My Breasts for the First Time

“My breasts are, literally, the softer parts of me. As flaunt-worthy as the more culturally-celebrated stronger parts of me,” asserts writer and Odissi dancer Swaati Chattopadhyay “Swaati, are your breasts in front of your waist?” “No.” “Then keep your hand where your

Infinite Blue Candies and Eyeballs

Panoptes:  Mother with her gilded champagne hair, seemingly infinite blue eyeballs, needed no cameras, not when she had a real time feed from her many plucked out eyes discreetly hidden in immaculate room top corners, in any book that had o’s  and

The Story of My Hair and Now

‘I wish I could do it. It needs so much strength and courage. I don’t have it’, stated a random stranger, admirably pointing at my shaved head. ‘Well, you just need a barber to do this, not really courage’, I responded.

Drenched Thoughts -Birthing a Dawn

Drenched Thoughts, A Novel by Anita Nahal. (Authors Press, New Delhi, 2023) ISBN: 978935529637 Price: Rs 495 Pages: 214 This book had to be written. Every intelligent, professionally qualified, smart woman who goes through an abusive marriage owes it in a